Monday, September 27, 2010

Day 35



If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. ~Dalai Lama




I like to think that I live my life in a very conscious way. I try my best not hurt anyone’s feelings, follow "most" of the rules, offer the larger piece of anything to the other person. I’m always concerned at how any and all of my actions affect the other person. I think you get the picture. I’ve made a career of not stepping on toes. Lately I’ve come to realize that while doing what is deemed “good girl behavior”, I’ve been not so good to myself. It’s dawned on me that treating me well would not mean that I had turned into a villain. How easy, I realize, it is to leave yourself out of your life. I’m sure there are a lot of people out there that without realizing it forget to add themselves to their “to do” lists. I know I have…and I’m the queen of lists. If ever there is a choice between doing for myself or someone else I always lose. I’ve decided to make an effort to add myself to the list. To, dare I say…do for me first or at least second. Somehow I think clocks won’t stop; the world will not stop rotating, just because I take the larger piece of pie. I think that people will start to see the change in me and probably wonder if maybe I have a new love…and they’ll be right…..me.