Friday, October 8, 2010

Day 46



“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.” ~ M. Scott Peck


I’ve been speaking with a friend this morning about finding answers. What happens, I find, is that when you’ve solved one mystery/problem another pops up. I use to constantly think, “Is this ever going to end?”, “Will I ever get past this?”and my all time favorite “Why me??” One day I realized that whatever catastrophic problem I thought I wouldn’t live through, I actually had. Now, I’m talking about the problems as small as, “Will my daughter ever get out of diapers?” or “Will he, he or he finally get it??” to much larger issues. Well, I think you get the point. Throughout my life I have had one hurdle or another, both large and small, which I’ve gotten over. They would encompassed my every thought, had me sick, shedding tears, making me doubt myself, my present, my future. That really sucks. So, now when I am faced with something that I’m sure I will never get through, I look back at the worst thing that’s ever happened to me and remember that without even realizing…one day I just got up, got myself dressed, did all the mundane things and it was no longer attached to me. I do admit that while going through whatever it is a broken heart, a disappointment or any other life altering event, it’s hard to just shake it off. I try to remember that I will survive and it will be behind me and it always works out. Unfortunately or fortunately it’s also safe to say that that without a doubt, waiting around the corner, there will be another mystery or challenge, looking to give me a shake, but now getting past them are my small victories.